Saturday, April 30, 2016

Hindsight is a Bummer

Bummer
Bummer (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
Well, I can't sleep.  As usual.  I was thinking about the next paper (last project, yay!), which is a very short essay to go with my portfolio.  For some reason (and no, that's not an invitation for everyone to analyze me), I have trouble writing anything at all complimentary about myself or anything I've done.  I'm supposed to be evaluating three of the projects:  the research proposal, the definitions essay, and the research paper (this one, I don't even want to think about, much less write about).  Now that I look at the proposal, which I wrote 12 weeks ago, I think it looks pretty bad.  I didn't have any grammar errors or anything like that, but my ideas seem kind of half-baked, considering what I actually did for the other projects.  It looked a lot better back when I wrote it.

Friday, April 29, 2016

Ice Cream Headache: Why is the freezer empty NOW?

It's the picture of Italian ice-cream in a sho...
It's the picture of Italian ice-cream in a shop of Rome, Italy (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
I lost the file of the stuff I wrote in class, so I'm further behind than I should be.  Portfolios are due next Wednesday, and the hard copy of my blog postings has to be in it.  The dog died last Saturday, Rebbie had a trailer land on her foot (don't ask) and she's going for xrays today, I feel a cold coming on, and my hair seems to be in permanent bedhead mode (and not in a cute, sexy way, either).  To top it all off, there is no ice cream in the freezer.  This is pretty much things went at the end of last semester and every semester when I was in high school.  Why?  Why?!!

I have no idea.

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Did you ever have one of those days?

Doc, age 3.  He's very suspicious of cameras 
As I've mentioned before, I have trouble sleeping, and it's worse when I'm under a lot of stress.  I always picture a hamster on an exercise wheel in my brain, running at top speed, worrying about everything on earth.  I can't stop the hamster.  Anyway, we just found out a few days ago that my sister Rebbie's dog has cancer of the spleen, and his spleen could rupture at any time now.  He's 12 years old, which is beyond the lifespan of his breed (Great Pyrenees), but he hasn't been acting strange, and his fur has been hiding the fact that he's lost a lot of weight (down to 82 from 122!).  So, we're all pretty down about that.  It'll be worse on Saturday, when he goes to the vet for the last time.  

It's hard to keep on track with all my courses when stuff like that is happening.  Yesterday in class, the prof had us write 5 blog posts in class (we're in a computer lab), and I'm having trouble accessing the file.  I feel like an idiot now.  I didn't post them from the lab because I wanted to do it on my own computer so that I could run Zemanta for pictures and article suggestions.

The one piece of good news is that the due date on the research paper has been pushed back to next Monday instead of tomorrow.  Or maybe it's not good news, since that just gives me more time to worry about it.

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Writing about War is Hell

The "Heroic Age" roster of the Aveng...
The "Heroic Age" roster of the Avengers. Cover art for Avengers vol. 4, #12.1, by Bryan Hitch. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
Can't sleep again.  I was just flipping through channels on tv, stopped for a minute on Troy (about the only movie that I thought I could scan), and heard Hector telling his men about his warrior code, which reminded me that I'm still 5 posts behind.

I had a scheduled conference yesterday with the prof to talk about how she wants me to revise my research paper draft.  She gave me some ideas about how to fix the wording of my thesis, and told me to quote both my sources and the film a lot more.  Luckily, she thought the scenes I chose from AAoU (I'm kind of tired of typing out Avengers:  Age of Ultron.  Hey, I just did it again) worked, so I don't have to start anything over.  It's going to be a lot of work.

Friday, April 8, 2016

I've Got a Thesis!

Regions of the brain affected by PTSD and stress.
Regions of the brain affected by PTSD and stress. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
Yes!  I'm still playing around with exactly how to word it-- probably will be doing that right up until I turn it in-- but the idea is pretty clear to me, and I can see the development of the pattern in the films from Iron Man right through to Avengers:  Age of Ultron.  I was having trouble narrowing it down for the longest time.  It basically has to do with what happens when one person (Iron Man) is not adhering to the same code as the rest of the unit.  The actions he takes set him apart from the rest of the team, cause the threat he was trying to prevent, and create resentment.  Of course, there are other factors as well:  it's evident from the character's appearance in other films that he is having significant difficulties that constitute an almost textbook case of post-traumatic stress disorder, for one thing.  For another, his self-image is not that of a warrior; he isn't part of the culture.  He has a line in the first Avengers film, "we are not soldiers," that bears that out.  He's a loner in many ways and is used to working on his own, with his own rules and no oversight. 
The irony here is that the most important long-term benefit of a warrior code is that it helps prevent the worst effects of PTSD--if he would accept the same values that the others do, he would be able to find support in being part of the group and probably suffer a lot less.

A Great Book, Finally

I know I said I'd post this a few hours after my last post, but it turned into almost a month.  And, no, I haven't been stalling.  I just forgot!  With all my coursework and getting my research paper draft going, this was the last thing on my mind.

Today is the second anniversary of my mother's death.  I woke up thinking about her, partly because I had a dream about her, in which she told me to "get cracking on that homework."  Since I'm just about up to date on everything else, I figured that this was my subconscious telling me I was missing something.  That was when I realized that I hadn't been posting.  So, here goes.

The book that has helped me the most with my paper is The Code of the Warrior:  Exploring Warrior Values Past and Present, by Shannon E. French, who is a philosophy professor at the U.S. Naval Academy.  Since she works in a military setting, it was probably only natural that she would want to write about this topic, and she obviously had access to plenty of current and former "warriors" to flesh out the research she did on warriors of the past.  One of the things that helped me is that it seems that the people (virtually all men) she consulted or quoted seemed to be able to detail the codes that governed their behaviors as members of the military, which fit what I saw in Avengers:  Age of Ultron.  I'll talk more about that in my next post.

Anyway, it's a terrific read; I couldn't put it down.  Check it out. 

Tuesday, March 15, 2016

No More Stalling

English: Basic morphological diferences betwee...
English: Basic morphological diferences between bacteria. The most often found forms and their asociations. Français : Formes bactériennes les plus courantes et leurs associations. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
Have I been stalling?  I don't think so, but I'm 3 posts behind.  I turned in my annotated bibliography and the definitions essay last week (I'm on spring break now.  Yay!), so I've been pretty busy.  And, I'm still trying to recover from the antibiotics I took for the sinus infection-- did you know that it can take up to two years for your "intestinal flora" (read:  bacteria) to recover after one course of antibiotics?  I didn't, but apparently my intestines are aware of the problem, because I feel icky.
I want to talk about a wonderful, useful, great find of a book for my project, but I'll save that for my next post.  Since I'm not stalling, it should be up in a few hours (I'm hoping to get some sleep).

Saturday, February 27, 2016

I Listen to a Grandma Rant

The cast of Phineas and Ferb perform "Car...
The cast of Phineas and Ferb perform "Carpe Diem", which includes many characters drawn on the show. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
I had just finished writing my last post when I realized that I could write about something that happened yesterday, because it did inspire me to write about it (all of our entries are supposed to be about research, writing, or our topic).  My grandmother is a closet Phineas and Ferb addict, and she's gotten me hooked, too, so yesterday afternoon, I set myself on the couch with tea and tissues, while she took the love seat, and we watched a block of episodes on Disney XD. 
Everything was fine until the second commercial break, when they ran two commercials that didn't just push her buttons-- they stomped on them.  The first one was for a game called Gas Out (I think the name is supposed to be a play on "gross out"), a card game where Guster the Gas Cloud farts at random intervals. There's several videos on YouTube, if you're curious. 
The second commercial was for a toy called "Booger Balls" (you can get this on Amazon).  You mix it up in a bowl, then throw the balls at your friends, covering them with slime, and hilarity ensues.
Grandma pretty much freaked out, and I learned that one of the things that gets on all her nerves is the "rampant vulgarity that is consuming this country."  She didn't stop at the commercials, either.  A certain presidential candidate came in for extra abuse ("even his hair is disgusting, and when he talks, you want to duct-tape your ears shut for fear of being contaminated!"), and so did the FX network for some sitcom I never heard of before.
Now, don't think that my grandma is some kind of uptight old lady who can't take a joke (the rant was hilarious!  I laughed myself into a coughing fit).  She meant it to be funny, but she also meant it, period.  
Net result?  I kind of agree with her.  Aren't you supposed to outgrow the need to gross people out?  And, her strongest point was about the message this kind of thing is sending kids.  "Do we really need to make being revolting an asset for an attractive personality?" Then I imagined some little runt hitting me with one of those balls, and I was completely on her side.  But I can't let her know, or she might pull me into a crusade that would have me marching outside Toys 'r Us with a "NO MORE BOOGERS!  NO MORE FARTING GAMES" sign.  Btw, did you know that there's recipes for some kind of food called "crusty booger balls"?  They came up first when I was searching for an image of the toy.
Hey!  Look at how much I wrote.  This should count for 2 or maybe even 3 entries, right?  Please?

The Sinus Infection from Hell

English: An infection of the maxillary sinus a...
Is this gross, or what?!!
An infection of the maxillary sinus as seen on CT
 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
Yeah, I'm sick.  I've had fully-loaded sinuses since Christmas, and earlier this week an infection set in, swelling up my eyes and blocking my ears.  Luckily (?), my school week was over on Wednesday, so I didn't miss any classes.  I've even kept up with my research schedule, since I didn't feel up to anything but reading.  I'll have my bibliography done on time, and my definitions essay is coming along pretty well.
The rest of the time I've been hanging out with my grandmother.  She came to live with us a few months ago when she sold her house (it was too big for her to keep up).  Dad asked her if she'd like to make our house her home base (she wants to travel with a couple of her friends), and it was all set.  She watched Age of Ultron with me, but gave up when I started watching my three possible scenes over and over.  She had some good ideas, so I was sorry she left.
I'm on my second day of antibiotics, and I still don't feel any different.  I'm worried about school on Monday.

Tuesday, February 16, 2016

Coming up with a research schedule

I'm not really sure how to schedule my research, but right now I plan to spend an hour a day searching until I have enough for the annotated bibliography and the definitions essay.  I will probably go to the library tomorrow after class, assuming I get the okay on my proposal.  So, that's as much as I can say about that right now.  

I'm still thinking pretty hard about my movie (oops- got to get used to using "film" when I'm working on this project).  Avengers:  Age of Ultron has several scenes I'm thinking of using.  I'm definitely going to use the scene near the end with Clint and Wanda, where he lays out what it means to be an Avenger, and I'm looking at Tony and Bruce deciding to use the staff for Ultron, but I also need Cap chewing Tony out for not sharing info.  I think.  That's as far as I've gotten on my primary research to date.

Sunday, February 14, 2016

Waiting is the Hardest Part

The "Heroic Age" roster of the Aveng...
The "Heroic Age" roster of the Avengers. Cover art for Avengers vol. 4, #12.1, by Bryan Hitch. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
I turned my research proposal in on Wednesday, so I figure I'll get it back on this coming Wednesday.  Tomorrow (Monday) seems too soon, based on last semester's assignments in all my classes.  I'm really hoping she okays it.  I'm sticking with Avengers:  Age of Ultron and a men's studies approach, but I narrowed it down to the code of the team.  My initial research question is:  Do the Avengers all keep to the same code?

The reason I'm asking this is that it seems to me that they don't, and they probably should for the good of the group.  This brings me to the fact that I am worried that I am partly drawn to that conclusion because I have a pretty good idea what the filmmakers are planning for the future films, thanks to my older brothers, Paul and Brian.  I'll get to that in my next post.

Monday, February 1, 2016

Men's Studies and Avengers: Age of Ultron

Captain America and The Avengers
Captain America and The Avengers
 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
Today's lecture was on men's studies, and I've decided to use that for my approach to Avengers:  Age of Ultron.  What interested me most was behavior codes, specifically warrior codes.  Watching the film again had me noticing all sorts of things I didn't think about when I first saw it.  For example, it's kinda obvious that they've all been working together a lot, since they have developed team moves, like Thor hitting Captain America's shield with his hammer and knocking out a large group of soldiers at one time with the shock wave.  What struck me the most, however, was when Captain America talked about losing "together" if it was necessary.  The basic cause of the action is Stark wanting to work alone or just with Banner and wanting not to even discuss his plans with the rest of the team.  Is this just because he's so used to getting his own way he can't stand to be thwarted?  Or is it that he isn't sure that he wants to be part of the team when they're not actually fighting?  Either way, the code of the group seems to involve being a group and being open with the group about things involving the group.
I've got a lot of thinking to do, and a proposal draft due on Wednesday, so I'd better get to it. 

Wednesday, January 27, 2016

It’s Later, so Here’s the More, as Promised

Ultron takes over Iron Man's armor. Cover of I...
Ultron takes over Iron Man's armor.
Cover of Iron Man vol. 3, #48.
(Jan. 2002) Art by Udon.
 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
Only the second week of classes, and I almost fell behind already.  I forgot about this blog.  I remembered about 10 minutes ago while I was brushing my teeth.  Not sure if there’s any connection there.  Anyway, about the lesson I had in not naming names.  A person of my acquaintance (is that vague enough?) recently lost his (could be her, but I’m going with him for convenience’s sake) job because of comments he made about the business that employed him.  No, he wasn’t complaining about them.  He was kind of bragging, and gave away a hint about something new coming from them.  They took this as him giving away their “secrets,” and that was that.  I don’t think he knew that they were reading his blog.  I’m going to be very careful from now on.  And yes, this entry counts, because it’s about writing and audience, and I’ll get to my project in the next entry.  I’ve pretty much settled on Avengers:  Age of Ultron, but I’m not sure about my approach.

Wednesday, January 20, 2016

Starting my research blog

English: A panorama of a research room taken a...
English: A panorama of a research room taken at the New York Public Library with a Canon 5D and 24-105mm f/4L IS. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
Welcome to my research blog for my English 102 class.  I’m a first-year student at a community college that I’m not going to name because I just had a lesson in why you shouldn’t name names (more about that later).  I did okay in 101 (I think the prof liked my grammar more than my writing; he went on and on about how he appreciated not having to mark a lot of mistakes.  But he didn’t have much to say about WHAT I wrote.  He did ask on one paper that I try not to use so many parentheticals.  I guess he had a point.).
Anyway, this term I’m going to be writing a research paper, and the materials I got on Blackboard make it sound as though this is a much bigger deal than I expected.  I mean, I’ve done research papers before, and they got good grades. 
I’m already over my 100 words, and I still haven’t said much about myself.  I’ll save that for my next post.